without bounds

I’m kind of spazzing right now. I posted Love Struck last...

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 02:25:19 -0500

I’m kind of spazzing right now.

I posted Love Struck last friday I think and I didn’t go online this whole weekend.

So come Monday, and at around 2:00 pm I decide to go check on tumblr to see how Love Struck was doing and BAM!

This hits me in the face. It hurt but felt really good!

I would have never, by the likes of me, thought that I would get any more than a handful of likes ever! And not only that there were two girls who asked if I could give them permission to use Love Struck and make it a tattoo O_O

I feel like a rockstar.

*does a victory dance around the living room

2013

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 02:58:11 -0500

So it’s 2013. Things are gonna change big time.

I’ll start the year right. Later tonight I’ll start running. Hopefully in the coming days/weeks I’ll be able to switch the time to the morning.

I want to start taking more risks and getting out of my head. Do the things I want to do. RISK. I want to live with no inhibitions. I want to start doing the things I’ve let pile on my to-do lists.

I want to fill my year with art, music, food, travel, great conversation, great company, new relationships and new experiences!

I’m 21 and I don’t want to let it pass without a bang!

I want to start talking more, make new friends, reading and making art more, making things I haven’t gotten to make, organize my life, start exercising, getting back to dancing, getting out of my head and be less self-conscious, eating more, travelling to places, being fearless and so much more.

I want to change. I want to change and pull through with it.

I want 2013 to be different.

2 am standard

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 14:05:23 -0400

My second term in fourth year is proving to be a force to be reckoned with. It’s got me drowning in school work with deadlines coming in faster than you can say ‘When’s it due?’ I’ve been sleeping so late that I am at a 2 am standard. 2 am being a rare least. I can go up to 5-6am. Oh the horror. Lack of sleep. Oh the pain. Lack of sleep. Oh look! A herd of zits and a field of eye bags!

Curse you 2 am standard!

Bring it on Bitch

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 04:33:48 -0400

It is only the third week of the second term of my fourth year and I’m already neck deep in paper work. Horrendous as it may be I come out with a borrowed laptop under one arm, a flash drive in the other and a game face in tow, all exclaiming to the world to bring it on bitch! The torrential rains shall not see me falter!

insecure

Thu, 13 Sep 2012 10:57:54 -0400

I’ve been looking at artworks done by my contemporaries and I am becoming immensely insecure by the second.

I have to admit I can be quite competitive when I see someone close my age do amazing works. I can’t help it. I can be quite self-deprecating as well. Every time I see them and their works I feel like I haven’t really invested time into my craft; that I’ve left it amongst cob webs and spiders.

I have to make it a point to draw whenever I can. I feel a little rusty. I’m also planning to take a serious break after college. A break from everything but art that is.

I’ve let this insecurity churn inside me too long. An insecurity caused by lack of action and initiative.

I need this insecurity to dissipate. Fast.

Day 6. I think...

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 12:51:43 -0400

Okay. Probably not.

Unfortunately I didn’t do much today D: Today, school was my priority. I had a general assembly to attend and two three hour classes. My academic day officially ended at nine in the evening.

The only real ‘workout’ I did was climb the stairs to the 14th floor :|

I’m still hoping I could sneak in some stretches and some butt workouts after I do my HW, but I guess, at this point, I can’t exactly account today as a workout day.

Hopefully I get to negate that statement later tonight :(

Day 5

Tue, 11 Sep 2012 07:56:25 -0400

So yesterday, Monday, I decided to take a rest from exercising. My body was aching and I thought it best not to push it too much.

Today, Tuesday, Day 5, I met up with my friends in Urda. We leisurely biked around the street haha which got me thinking of unearthing the bike at home. I quite miss it! Anyway, after lunch we set out to the fort and we stayed in Anna’s condo. We used their gym and swam afterwards :) I did a bit of yoga, some ab workouts, jogged a bit and did some rounds on the bike. Swimming afterwards just put the cherry on top. It was strangely relaxing haha

But yeah, all in all a good work out day :D

Monday

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 23:31:31 -0400

My hamstrings are in pain, so much so that I walk funny haha

I’m not sure if I’m gonna force myself to walk up the stairs today :P or at least not all the way.

For sure going down has to be through the stairs. I think haha

Oh the pain~

Day 2, 3 and 4

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 07:14:00 -0400

Day 2

So last Friday I had to wake up pretty early for an 8 am class. So that pretty much answered my prayer for breakfast :D I was naturally hungry by 9 am :D

Also I decided, to keep my exercise going, that I would use the stairs instead of opting for the elevators or the escalators. So for class I had to walk up ‘til the 10th floor… It was excruciating! I was grasping for the rail by the time I was in the 8th floor. Well, it’s a start.

I continued my stairs escapade even at the mall, after we were sent home from class. And then after the mall I decided to walk home. And at home I did some stretches and some core workouts from crunches to 15 second planks :P

And at night I went out to a night market to see my friends. They said they we’re going to jog around the fort tomorrow at 2pm. They invited me along and I agreed.

I’ve never really seriously jogged before so it would be interesting to see how I turn out :P

Day 3

So at 2pm I met up with my friends and we were off to the fort to run. I didn’t have any running shoes so I just used some sneakers I had lying around.

Long story short, I’ve come to the conclusion that jogging is way harder than it looks hahaha by the end of the day my legs were sore and my sides and my core were quite tense. I really hope I could keep this up :S

So after we went our separate ways Icia gladly dropped me at the mall. I had to buy some ingredients for dinner. After that I opted to walk home instead of take the jeepney.

When I got home I was still pretty sore so I stretched myself out. I think it helped because I wasn’t as sore as I would expected to be in the morning after.

All in all I had an intense leg workout!

Day 4

Day 4, Sunday, i jogged again. Cara and Icia invited me to jog again, only this time the meet up time was at 7:30am and Anna, Icia’s sister and Bubba, her dog, were coming along for the jog :D

We had a good time, though I felt that we didn’t jog/run as much as we did on the third day :P Oh well.

After we jogged we went to Anna’s condo and for the first time I was able to go inside the gym and use some of their equipment. It was interesting haha

It was an ok day compared to the last few days. Buut I’m still quite sore. I think I still need to do some stretching.

Day 1

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 11:00:53 -0400

Ultimately, my goal is to be stronger. I feel that if I’m stronger there’s a greater chance that I’d be ready for any physical challenge that comes my way. Plus and boost in appearance will be much appreciated!

The only problem is sticking with it. It’s always been my problem. I get lazy and I quit easily.

So here I am, once again, another ‘day 1’ to surpass.

I thought it would be better to document what I’ve done for the day by blogging about it. It might help me to stick with the routine. Hopefully.

So, today I did a lot of rump raising exercises. ‘A lot’ of course is subject to past evidences.

After today’s exercise I realized one thing: DAMN AM I OUT OF SHAPE!

I mean, I’ve always known this, being the kind of person that never really works out; but there always is a sense of self-realization when you actually go through something that will test that theory out.

I’ve always been thin but being thin doesn’t necessarily mean your fit. And fit is what I want to be. I want to gain some meat and gain some muscle.

Ugh.

Fudge. I am so out of shape D:

My legs were shaking, I was dizzy and just slightly pathetic. I of course am trying to be kind to myself by adding ‘slightly’ in that statement.

I’m planning to start taking the stairs in school than opt for the elevators to add to my workout. It will be hell but it’ll probably help my ‘leg-shakin’ problems.

DAY 1 DONE. 20 DAYS MORE TO HABITUAL BLISS.

They say that it takes 21 days to make a habit. I’m...

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 04:44:24 -0400

They say that it takes 21 days to make a habit.

I’m planning to make a new one soon.

I’m not stellar about the fact that I’m limp as a noodle. I’ve got no energy nor strength.

And of course, I’m planning to change that.

How?

I’ll make a habit.

It’s time to get physical.

blunt

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 06:03:49 -0400

I need to draw more…

I feel as if I’m getting suckier with every day that goes by.

Some sharpening is in order.

body talk

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 02:59:00 -0400

I for one am extremely conscious when it comes to my body. Let’s just say I have not attained a state of nirvana in my perception of it. I have no semblance of breasts, I’m as thin as a stick, and the list goes on. I know it can be a little self-serving, even deemed selfish perhaps, to think so much of oneself, even if it is in a negative prognosis, but I can’t help it. Though I do try, everyday to change the lenses I have on. I try to be more positive when I look at myself. Trying.

I’ve often felt though that my image of my body is not hung on the body alone but also the things I’m capable of doing with my body. Isn’t everything better when you’ve found good use for it? Off the bat I’m not a very active person. I veg on couches and computer chairs. Woe is me. My main exercise would be walking. I walk a lot, but obviously not enough.

I want to change habits that I know are linked to my body image. I want to dance again, I want to sleep earlier, wake up earlier, start eating breakfast, going out more, making more art and the list goes on. May I have one order of positive distraction please?

Now that I think about it I don’t think my negative body image is about my body at all. Our bodies is an effect of what we do in our lives. Maybe I hate it so much because it resembles the idle state that I’ve chosen to park in; the inaction, the laziness.

I want to change that. I want to live knowing that I’ve tried. No. That I’ve done. I’ve tried too much with no avail. Trying has been my excuse for too long.

Things are going to have to change.

To sleep or not to sleep...

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 02:46:34 -0400

Oh that is the question

back to basics

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 02:43:37 -0400

So I’m planning to go back to visual normalcy by turning my hair to a predictable, socially acceptable hair color this weekend :P I shall ardently miss my green/blue hair but I do wanna grow out my hair :P and the only way to do that seamlessly and without spending too much on frequent retouching I have to change it close to a color that’s close to home.

As of August 15, 2012 I am at 105. The goal is to get to 110.

Wed, 15 Aug 2012 07:41:44 -0400

As of August 15, 2012 I am at 105. The goal is to get to 110.

So I was able to do my second challenge in the 30 day art...

Sun, 05 Aug 2012 02:31:00 -0400

So I was able to do my second challenge in the 30 day art challenge :D

So I decided to go with photo manipulation. It was the first time I did anything like this and I love it! All the stitching, painting, drawing and sticking got me hooked :D I printed this photo of Ezra Miller in print shop on A3 paper and I got to work!

I will definitely keep doing this! It was fun and raw; a little bit like finger painting back in preschool :D

check out my art blog Schizophrenic Colors

or this one :3

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 10:36:00 -0400

or this one :3

So for my next challenge in the 30 day art challenge (sans the...

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 10:34:00 -0400

So for my next challenge in the 30 day art challenge (sans the 30 day part) I have to make an artwork on someone I like, whether it be a celebrity, a significant other or a crush.

Well, I’m hitting two birds with one stone with my next subject: The great Ezra Miller.

He’s just… yummy. Haha He’s yummy in his looks, in the way he dresses, in the way he acts and his mind is just… sigh.

But joking aside I just respect him a lot. He’s an intelligent, talented and eccentric being.

Which is why I chose him as my subject for my second challenge!

As for my path of medium, I was surfing my merry way through the online world when I chanced upon the first image you see here. It’s basically an edited photo. I was thoroughly amused by it that I thought this would be a great direction for my second challenge. The one I got may be digitally manipulated. What I plan on mine is to traditionally ‘tamper’ with a print out photo of Ezra Miller. I plan to print a photo of him in the largest size I can get him on then screw it a bit here and there with markers, paint, pens and the list goes on. I can’t decide yet on which to pick though. It’s a battle between the two photos you see of Ezra Miller there. Well whatever I choose I’m pretty excited for this one for I haven’t done this before :D

Will see how this turns out :D

Photo

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 10:00:31 -0400